Okay lang kahit hindi ako yung person mo right now. Kahit hindi ako yung hinahanap at gusto mo.

My love for you will never change. You’ll always be.

I love love love you, Anak. I miss youuu, it hurts.

This thought and feeling has been here for awhile now

But just now it occurred to me

Or rather the right words came to light

I’m sad and i feel terrible

That at your age, I feel like you’re forced to grow up

To be and act mature

To think and understand

Way beyond that’s suited to your age

I feel bad that you have a mom like me

How I wish to do better, to give you a better life and love

As I watch you sleep

Tears start to form

The overwhelming feelings

I can’t exactly name them

It still baffles me that something as precious as you

Is right here with me

As tiny as you

Is relying on me

Carbonara.

Fry Bacon and Ham, move to a plate. Saute Yellow onion (finely chopped - plenty) and Garlic (fc - some), add all purpose cream (1 pack) Stir then add 1 Knorr beer cube, continuously stir, then add the Bacon and Ham (cut into bits), then add some pasta water, then toss is the pasta noodles.

Add parmesan or cheddar.

hedonistpoetbyhira:

the crowd around me was triggering
my loneliness
i felt like i was the only one
with a soul
and without a body
i still don’t understand
how i could feel this intensely
and be numb
at the same time
it was like being alive
without a heartbeat

- hedonist poet

It’s our 2nd night without Daddy.

6.26.21

I just had to write this so I’ll never forget.

Was tired and sleepy,

Zach turned off the TV, kept his extension cord and laid down beside me to sleep.

quoted-books:

“What no one tells you about grief is that you don’t want to figure out a way to live with it—you want the part of you that hurts to die instead.”

— Leesa Cross-Smith, Whiskey & Ribbons

fennecshandgf:

Grief is the final act of love

One last time–Ariana Grande// Allegiant–Veronica Roth// The Good Place (2016-2020)// Jamie Anderson// WandaVision(2020)// The Capacity to Love Requires the Neccesity to Mourn–Dr. Alan Wolfelt// Soon You’ll Get Better– Taylor Swift// Fleabag (2016–2020)// Wish: Heaven Has No Regrets–Tessa Shaffer

fleabag gif credit: @ameliasimms

grieve-and-bereave:

“I was like a patient who cannot tell the doctor where it hurts, only that it does.”

— Khaled Hosseini, And the Mountains Echoed (via books-n-quotes)

jinxingrief:

infpisme:

jinxingrief:

handwrittenloveletter-deactivat:

How to Miss Someone, Rainesford Stauffer

noorskitchen:

One of the most challenging things I’ve had to learn is that healing must be intentional. There is no one golden day that comes and saves you from all your misery. Healing is a practice. You have to decide that it’s what you want to do and actively do it. You have to make a habit out of it. Once I learned that, I only looked back to see how far I came.